Supernaturally Okay

I've received so many benefits from hearing others speak about their faith and beliefs online. I've also received some confusion along the way. Sometimes I think I was happier knowing little about theology and apologetics, but having a closer dependence in getting to know God through worship, prayer and reading the Bible. Still, if I'm honest, I've loved learning so many great things about God that I didn't know without learning from people who have devoted years into going deeper into Bible study.

Still, not everyone will get everything right all the time. Some people left me feeling like I shouldn't have as much faith in my prayers to God, because theologically speaking, it might not be His will. Little by little, I understood this truth, but it started to weaken my faith and anticipation for the supernatural reality of being united with God in such a wonderful way.

The other day, I was thinking about how in the moments when our bodies feel weak, and so does our faith, it can feel like God is no where in the room, and who can help us? Every situation is different of course. Sometimes we can pray, and God's presence is so strong in the room, filling us with hope and peace. Others force us to reach out to other people, who God will use their faith to warm up our own, and turn our eyes to Him for help.

I've come to accept that when a moment comes, and it feels like God isn't helping, just believe. Just have faith. The pain is there. The weakness is there. The discomfort is there. The panic, but God is also in the room. In fact, God is inside of us, going through it with us. I can only imagine it's like when I have witnessed my own children going through awful health moments, wishing somehow I could go through it instead of them, feeling so helpless. Of course God's perspective is fuller, He is omniscient, yet what Father would not be moved by His children's pain and suffering?

I went to church recently, and noticed worshipping God makes all the difference. There is something supernatural that happens. There is a wonderful peace in the deepest part of me. My daughter recently described that feeling in her own words as, "I feel like I am in heaven". God does... something... in those moments. Every moment, a new gift, a new grace, exactly what is needed in that moment. There isn't really any theology necessary that can inform you of what is happening in that moment. I know, all of you theology nerds, like me, are thinking, "Actually, God is renewing your mind, as the Bible verse says, etc..."

I'm sure we could find our experiences explained in Scripture. However, sometimes, you don't need to be using your head necessarily. Sometimes, just trusting God and giving Him a moment of your time to let Him hear you praise Him and letting Him do something in you is enough. Somehow, even when we can't express our own feelings, when we don't understand what is going on, He does something supernatural in us or in our situation, that all of a sudden will make you feel... okay. And for some of us, feeling "okay" is a dream.

"I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." Psalm 121:1-2 Photo: Random screenshot from Mike Winger's YouTube channel (Apparently I don't really listen to many Bible teachers online as I used to. Picked his photo because I learned a lot on his channel in the past. Some other channels eventually left me feeling the way I described above.)